I posted on Facebook about me not being allowed to attend a Good Friday service at Newlife Church in Longview, Washington because of alleged stalking of a then 11 year old girl in late 2019 and early 2020 until the COVID-19 scare led to online services only for several weeks. There were mixed responses. I got support from Christine Mantell and LInda & Mike Schwitzke that was nice. However, a nursery leader at New Life Church thought it was really bad what I did, and a female classmate who I think is a feminist thought that I should have great remorse as if I were a child molester. I've been against child molestation and child rape since I was a youth. The nursery leader said that i claimed that this girl would be part of my reward in Heaven. The truth is I did not know for sure, I may have hinted that it might be a possibility and someone blew it out of proportion. I don't think I should have publicly hinted that. I know I was tricked by the demonic to follow her too often. Satan knew that I would not molest or rape a child, but he found a way to get me to do conduct that would anger some people. With all the messages the Senior Pastor gave about the declining church, I was looking for someone to cheer me up. That girl had a nice smile and often did cheer me up. However, the Devil got me too addicted too her and I followed her too often at church. Before the COVID closures there was no indication that there was emotional upset from the family and the last day I was with them on March 18, 2020, the 11 year old girl her older sister and mother all said they would welcome me to visit them. After that came the COVID closures and I missed the girl very much. With the shelter in place policy, I postphoned plans to visit that family. In April 2020, I was shocked to learn that the parents who previously were Facebook friends, blocked me from visiting their Facebook pages. I then got a post from my last Newlife home group leader that denounced my following the 11 year old girl. I figured that that family was upset that I followed the 11 year old too much. I thought that the demonic got that family upset to cause division. I cancelled plans to visit that family. I felt with that family upset that it was time to switch to Valley View Church which is my neighborhood church. I made the switch and watched their online services until in person worship resumed on May 31, 2020.
I later realized that I should not have followed that girl that much. It would have been better that I got my cheer ups from adults and other children who were in the fellowship hall, sanctuary, or in a kids life or nursery class when I helped out. But, I was blinded by feelings and blinded that I might be stalking a girl. The Holy Bible does not mention stalking, but it is forbidden by Washington state law. Except there are questionable cases regarding alleged stalking. I affirm I did not mean to cause harm, but harm was caused.
At Valley View Church, I obey constitutional state laws because of Romans 13, and avoid what many consider stalking. On Sunday morning, I avoid going by the children's classrooms unless I need to, to get to the fellowship hall or to get a ride with a church goer who drives.
I admit, I made some bad mistakes at the last few months of my time at Newlife and I feel bad for the hurt they caused but there is nothing I can do about it now.
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